Mistress Zaynab's
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Saturday, January 31, 2009
wise words
"one must seek the shortest way and the fastest means to get back home - to turn the spark within into a blaze, to be merged in and to identify with that greater fire which ignited the spark" Nityananda.
Friday, January 23, 2009
opportunity arises
I have just been offered a great opportunity to show My video/film work in Amsterdam in March! The only problem is that I have to pay for the flight on My own. It's $650 (including the baggage fee). With several of My slaves laid off and downsized in our failing economy, this could be difficult. Anyone willing to help Mistress bask in European glory?
I do so love traveling, and I have not done so in some time.
MZ
Why I am here
In my effort to make Myself more accessible, I have rediscovered why I made Myself inaccessible in the first place. There are just too many people out there's who's goal is simply to waste My time. As soon as I make Myself available the wankers and flakes come out of the woodwork.
That said, I wish to remain accessible, while reviewing just why I am here; why I have this web site; why I started My own BDSM Temple; why I chose to be a Pro Domme. It will help Me, as well as potential new subs keep everything in proper perspective.
First and foremost, I am here because I am irrevocably kinky. Doing kinky things to people makes Me happy. I get a special thrill in being served and being in command of the men (and sometimes unique women) who get a special thrill out of being subservient, submissive, and often helpless to My whims. Recognize that the thrill is mutual. I don't hate men. I don't have anger issues. I'm expressing My creativity. I am having fun. Isn't it ideal to have fun with your work?
By the time I reached puberty, I also realized the immense and complex power there is in being Female. I revel in it. I enjoy having others revel in it with Me.
Equally importantly, I have always loved to take people on journeys that help them realize things about themselves and their world. If I were a drug I would not be an upper or a downer; not coke, nor speed, nor barbiturates. I might be a little like opium, though never like heroine. But, more accurately, I would be a psychedelic - a magic mushroom. I like to see people experiencing new things, feeling in new ways, having revelations. I get a vicarious high from it.
Closely related to that is My enjoyment of being in the role of guide or instructor. Because I thrive on learning Myself, I like to lead others to new knowledge, kinky or otherwise. Also, keep in mind in My mundane life I'm a Producer in the film business. I lead others toward creative ends quite naturally.
And finally, I am here to survive, to run a business, and support Myself. This is the part that is so often overlooked by those who contact Me. My time is valuable, because it is with My time (along with My knowledge and My sensuality) that I make My living. Wasting My time shows nothing but disrespect, and interferes with My livelihood.
I am here, willing and ready to take you to new places, to do things to you that others don't know how or may be unwilling to do. All you have to do is reach out and I will guide you to those feelings, that experience, that sense of belonging that you need. You want to belong to Me, and I am here, like the depiction of a Hindu Goddess, palms open, ready to receive you.
But if you are not serious about having these experiences, don't be the always disdained "wanker" that all Pro Dommes know too well. I am offering an experience that takes energy, time, and effort to create. The least you could do is to take part in the experience that you tell Me you so desire. I can only understand the wanker as one part coward, one part control freak, and one part nothing better to do. Wankers are a type - a bad, tired cliche and an unfortunate aspect of this business.
This message comes after a series of no-shows and time wasters that make Me almost regret opening my doors to newbies once again. But among the droning hum of the usual chorus of fools, there are a few true submissives, masochists, fetishists, and kinksters - those clear toned melodies that, no matter how off-key, make the song worth singing.
MZ
Saturday, January 17, 2009
accessibility
I suddenly had this feeling today as if I've allowed a few very promising new subs to slip through the cracks in My communication.
If you have felt ignored or neglected in past months, let Me know.
I do also answer My phone at Holy Mountain most afternoons (Tues. - Sat.) and have made an effort to return messages.
And I also offer phone hypnosis and Domination via My paid line here:
$3.99 per minute if you would like to talk at length about your interests. Again, afternoons work well for Me. If you feel the urge to discuss your kinkiest interests, I would be aroused to help you in this respect.
I also sometimes monitor the Holy Mountain private chat if you have quick questions. Check the web site. If the chat button is blue, click it and Ill be there.
I have a new New Year's resolution, and that is to make Myself a bit more accessible to those who long to serve.
MZ
Friday, January 16, 2009
Toes on Inauguration Night?
As I was sitting around wondering WHY no one had RSVP'd for Toes on Tuesday, I realized that it was because I scheduled it for Inauguration Night. Oooops! My mistake!
Consider it canceled. I will reschedule it soon.
MZ
Thursday, January 15, 2009
New Interests
In My research and practice of breathwork techniques in sessions, I've become more interested in the edgier aspects of manipulating breath. I'm getting curious about breath play, including bagging. The idea of playing with such an essential life function both frightens and arouses Me. When that feeling occurs it is My instinct to step onto that path and investigate the possibilities.
Are their subs out there who have enjoyed intense breath play? If so, I'd like to correspond. E-mail Me.
MZ
P.S. Do not forget, Toes on Tuesday (My foot party)is next Tuesday. RSVP b Friday to receive $10 off admission.
Tuesday, January 13, 2009
training
Hello dear servants and other perverts,
As some of you experienced, training went rather well on Sunday and Monday and I am left with two lovely new Dommes whom I believe are ready to assist Me in sessions. To include a Priestess in trianing in our next session, one need only request it and bring an additional $50 in tribute for Her time.
Mistress Ana is cat-like in appearance, and quite fond of gender-fuck. She can slide easily from slinky femme to tom boy, with her pretty eyes and soft short black hair. I enjoyed watching the thoughtful look on Her face as She carefully considered Her commands and them issued them with strength and clarity. In Her first experience with a true masochist She was able to skillfully cane a boy's bottom to a pulp, while playing the game of "45, Mistress may I have another... 46, Mistress may I have another..."
Mistress James' strength came out in role play. She can be a commanding and poised dog trainer, a mean and bratty juvenile delinquent, or a sophisticated bitch. And there's a warmth and joy on Her face while she plays. I sense a Woman with true inner confidence. The curly bouncy red locks framing Her face and ornery glint in her eye tell the bottom that he's powerless against Her playful and often humiliating sense of fun.
We began training with lessons in the psychological aspects of BDSm, as well as effective D/s interactions. The second day was spent mainly adding to the two Women's skill sets with tips on everything from CBT to electroplay to mummification.
I, personally, found that I like the role of mentor in this context. It gives Me the opportunity to really look at what I do and how I do it, and to re-educate Myself in the context of educating others. I have to answer questions about why I have someone breathe a certain way, or the purpose of doing certain activities to get My subs into a specific mindset. This is not the first time I've mentored others, but I feel like this time I had the most clarity and understanding of the intricacies of my methods. I was able to really illustrate the difference between merely playing with someone and really connecting with that person.
It's been a great week so far.
But being the introvert that am, I needed to take today to be quiet and reflect. The silence re-energizes Me. As a result (and with the impending blizzard in mind), I moved this week's foot party to next Tuesday, giving all of you time to RSVP. I will post again with further details, but if you would like to attend, don't hesitate to e-mail Me.
MZ
Monday, January 05, 2009
volunteers needed
I need 5 submissive male volunteers to assist Me in training five new lovely Holy Mountain Priestesses.
I need five bottoms for Sunday Jan. 11, late afternoon, and at least five for Monday, Jan. 12 from 1pm until 8pm. I will be doing an overview of various types of sessions (from playful to sadistic), and going over some basic skills including useful bondage ties, CBT, nipple play, spanking, flogging, caning, electrical play, etc. with hands-on practice for the Ladies. If you have specific interests, we will be sure to cover them at some point during the instruction.
No tribute required, but at least some experience with BDSM is mandatory. Priority is given to slaves who have served Myself or another Holy Mountain Priestess in the past.
E-mail Me now to volunteer.mistress@mistresszaynab.com
MZ
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